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Location: Humboldt county, California, United States
Interests: There's nothing better than writing.
Expertise: Creating interesting and thoughtful works with nothing but a few words on a blank page. Effort isn't my strength, entertainment is.
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|I STILL HAVE THIS???|
Wow I totally forgot I had this. I would write in this little ol' page
of mine to vent and release thoughts and emotions I had pent up inside
me. Well guess what? I don't need this anymore. Thanks to my friends
and my loving girlfriend, I no longer need to hold things up within me.
Fuck yeah! So now what will I do with this little ol' page of mine? I
guess I'll keep writing in it. Just not as often. I think the last time
I wrote in this was nearly two months ago now? Maybe less, I don't know
and I don't care.
I wonder if there are people still reading this huh? Well if you are,
then get ready for some crazy stuff. I've got all this stuff to say and
I don't have time to write them all down, at least not yet.
Jennifer and I celebrated our one year anniversary. One year. Sounds
like forever but boy it doesn't. I love every moment with her the good
and the bad. But tell you what the good has outweighed the bad. There
have been a lot more ups than downs on this rollercoaster ride. I love
it. I can't ever express how much I love that woman in words, never.
Can't try and won't even try. It goes beyond emotional and physical
love. I know deep in my heart I'm marrying that woman, and I will soon.
Count on that.
What has been going on? Well I work at Target now. I'm an electrnonics
team member. Fuck yeah! Work is great. The people are all interesting,
especially my co-workers. They are awesome.
Humboldt State has treated me well, although I have missed an
extraordinary amount of classes this semester. I need to get a better
alarm clock or something. One that has a freakin' fog horn or air horn
attached to it. Mabye I will find a way to wire a fire alarm to it.
Eureka! The answer has been found... hmmm....
Things that irk me...
I'm living in a house with Greg, Brian and Caleb. Nicknames are as
follows: Billy Bitchcake, Scovelactic and Kaleeb Johnson. Nice.
I've met some new people this semester. Quite interesting.
Why is it that women are attracted to men that are already taken? Ha, anyone have the answer hmm?
Found out my cousin's ex-husband was killed in Iraq two days ago. Sad stuff.
Twenty three years of age isn't such a bad thing. You're not too old and not too young... ah... youth.
My sister wants to move out of her dorms over at Cal State Long Beach.
Apparently having to walk down a big ass hallway to pee has gotten to
Scovelactic is wondering why people don't want to hang out with taken people. Hmm... single life, so sweet, yet so tragic.
I think Deutcha has a nice butt and Winston is a lucky man.
I think Jennifer has better ASSsets and I'm a lucky man.
What's up with girls these days? They are becoming developed at a young age, yeesh!
What's up with drunk guys at parties? Assholes.
What's up with me not drinking? I haven't had a drink in a good long while, puke...
Kaleeb Johnson has this power, the power to attract girls to him, yet
he doesn't use it.... how sad, or good, depending how you look at it.
Scovelactic is a flirt, who isn't eh? Fuck yeah!
I wonder how JJ is doing? Man whores... is that what you call them?
Fuck, how is my family doing? I need to call more often.
I'm going to the Oakland Raiders vs. Denver Bronco game. Scovelactic and Kuya Rey. Good times.
I miss writing. Especially when people read it and leave commments. Fuck Yeah!
I have more porn than I have regular movies... sad? Not really, not when your girlfriend watches them with you... Naughty...
I wonder how Deutcha is doing? She's moved down a notch, Jenny is now my bestest bud.
I wonder how Jerri is doing? My ex.
What's up with girls sending messages? Mind games. I know guys play
them to but come on! We're not in high school anymore... yeesh!
Line up all the bastards, all I want is the truth! Fuck Yeah!
What is up with the fuckin' lame ass pick up lines dudes!? Why don't
you actually talk to the women instead of landing them in bed! Fuck
Yeah! Trust me, its a whole lot better when you can actually think and
talk with your brain, not your penis!
Marriage, used to be afraid of it, now I welcome it.
Haha, I remembered all the stupid crushes I had on the opposite sex... eeek!
The past is the past the future is now, take hold and don't let go bitches, you'll regret it.
Dwelling, that's my number one enemy and pet peeve.
It's times like these I miss writing... yet it never goes away, so how can i miss it then eh?
I want a dirty martini! Hint hint!
One last thing... FUCK YEAH!
Peace and I'm out... FUCK YEAH!
|THE NEVERENDING MIND|
Where to begin and where to
end? At that matters is the ending? Who said that huh? I think it's
where you begin, if you don't have a good beginning, then you can't
even get to the end. There is no way a person would even begin, how
would they be able to get to the end? It all depends how you begin,
it's all about the beginning. Where should I start however. I don't
quite know yet. Well, let me try something. I'll try to create a
beginning, even though there is no end in sight.
There was no one weirder at that point. I never heard someone so hyped
about a story of an electrocuted squirrel. Yes, there was no one
stranger indeed. First impression, "she's the stereotypical stoner".
Very unattractive. Yes, yes, I said it, it was very unattractive. You
were just so fuckin' weird at the time, there was no way in hell you
were even remotely in my thoughts. How could you be? I bet I never
entered your mind as well, did I? Shit, I was the quiet Filipino guy,
no one hardly knew me at the time. I didn't even get to know Heather
until a month into the semester. So how could I be a speck of a memory
in your mind?
Next was the time I saw you on the ground holding the back of your
head. That reaffirmed the first impression. Why in the world were you
on the ground? I know, I know! That was one of the weirdest moments
I've seen you in! Then again, how could I have had you in my mind? It
was nearly impossible to fall for you at that point... however...
The overnight conversation changed everything. You weren't as weird as
you first turned out to be. I fell for you then. It was incredible, in
one fell swoop, WHAM, I liked you.... the rest is now history....
Love, it was foreign to me until I met you.
Jennifer Ann Keele
|TWENTY THREE AND COUNTING|
in Oxnard California right now. Just got done celebrating my sisters
18th birthday. She's an old foggie like myself. I turned 23 on Sept.
7th, she turned 18 on Sept. 14. Technically she's an adult now. She's
going to Cal State Long Beach. Haha, we're growing so old. Funny thing,
age and stuff. Blah!
I wonder what's going to happen to all of us... only time will tell eh?
Peace, em' out!
In three more days I'll reach the ripe old age of 23. Ah!
|FROM GOOD TO BAD AND BACK|
So check this out. I was about to go to work today and I was walking
out and the door and slam. No keys. I had locked myself out of my own
house. It wouldn't have been so bad if my car keys weren't attached to
the same key chain as the house keys. I had to get a ride from Jennifer
to go to work today. Anyhow back to the lock out. I attempted to go
into the garage to go through the door which leads into the house. Well
during the attempt, I was about to push the screen forward to get it to
pop right out and the glass window simply shatters. It shattered!
Broke! I simply pushed it in and bang. So I climb into the garage and
twist the door handle into the house and its locked! A broken window
later I was still locked out. Now I live with Caleb and he also has a
set of keys, but he's in Tulare on vacation. So I then called the
landlord and they are gone as well. Luckily she left the number for her
daughter and she was able to get a spare key and open the house for me.
Thanks to Jennifer for getting my keyes and picking me up from work.
She's an awesome girlfriend.
Work was good. It wasn't bad, well not too bad. I covered for Stephen.
He was orginally supposed to work from 2 to 10 p.m., but he had other
business to attend to, so I took the shift. I was going to work from 5
a.m. to 12 p.m. I jumped at the chance to work the afternoon shift
instead of the wee morning hours. Early bird gets the worm my ass. Well
I'm quickly gaining some sales savy and I even got a "red card" today.
A red card is Target's Visa card brand and Target is supposed to meet a
quota or something. Anyhow I got one. Which means... nothing. Its not
too big. I'm starting to get a better feel of the store which is good.
I have one and a half more months of working full-time before I go into
part time mode when I go back for Fall semester at Humboldt State
University. I taking 20 units. That's a doozy isn't it. Well. Life
isn't easy. Anyhow work is good. The people in the electronics
department are awesome, everyone else is so-so. Target is a lot funner
than I thought, well, when I'm in the electronics department.
I'm sitting in my room watching Ray. A great movie thus far. I think
I'm nearing the end of the movie. I'm waiting for Jennifer to text or
call me. She went out to a party and I stayed home. I was really tired
at the time and wasn't in the mood to go out. I wonder if she ever gets
angry I don't go out as much with her to parties as I used to. I should
ask her. Well I just texted her and hopefully she answers.
You know, I spend a lot of time thinking and hoping that I don't
disappoint those around me. It's a scary secret, I work hard to make
sure no one is disappointed in me. I want to make sure I reach
everyone's approval. Its a weakness, I know. But its my character, even
if it is a flaw.
It's nearly 2 a.m. I wonder if she'll call me or text me. Well have to see... catch you all later.